The Curse of the Ultrasound Machine....

Ultrasound Machines have made so many amazing things happen for pregnant women. They catch debilitating diseases in unborn babies, let parents have a glimpse at their unborn child, and help Dr.'s make important decisions on the health and safety of babies....

However, they suck, too. Blunt. I know. But I am so frustrated right now that I can't even prentend to like the stupid machine. Here's what happened:

1. Last week I had an u/s to estimate the babies fetal weight which was 7.5 lbs. I was put on the induction list for Dec. 29th because my baby was measuring so large.
2. I received a call 2 days later that I didn't qualify for a medical induction because Karson was in the 90-95% and must be 95% or bigger. AND the elective induction list was full. However, if Karson hit the 95% mark on the next Tuesday (TODAY) I could be put back on.
3. Had an u/s today. He measured 7.6lbs. That's right...he supposedly only gained an ounce. The tech looked at me funny and said, "Well, these formulas are only calibrated to make an estimation once every 3 weeks. And you already had an u/s last week so since it has only been a week that measurement is off."
4. You think?
5. Dr. says...."Well, you still don't qualify due to todays measurement."
6. Me, "But isn't it off."
7. Dr., "Yes, but that doesn't matter. The baby needs to be 100 grams heavier to qualify. So now we will put you on the list for Monday, Jan. 4th."
8. Me....now sobbing, "But I'll be 39 weeks and this baby will be HUGE. What if I can't push it out."
9. Dr., "There's a very slim chance you won't be able to...it will be ok. See you next week...here's a tissue." Pat on the back.

Ok....so I HATE ultrasound machines now. If I would have never known the weight I might never have started to obsess with the fact that I have to push such a large baby out of my whoo haa..... After giving birth to Kolton at 36weeks 5days with a 25hour labor and a vacuum to boot and 40 stitches later I am a little nervous at what is going to happen to me with a LARGER baby at 39 weeks.

Pray for me. I need it right now.

KARSON UPDATE

Quick update after my really long Dr.'s Appt.....

His estimated weight at the moment is 7.5lbs. This measurement can be + or - a lb....let's hope for -. Even though he is gaining steadily I haven't gained any weight in the last month and that makes me happy. I am dilated 1 cm which is more then I ever did before I was induced with Kolton. Since I have 2 more weeks to go before my induction I should dilate even more...should. Hopefully. (The Dr. suggested ways to "ripen" my cervix, but I will save you the gory details.) Karson is measuring in the 90-95%. So we went ahead and scheduled an induction for the night of the 29th. I will be 38 weeks exactly. I was 37 weeks when I was induced with Kolton. So hopefully this induction will go a lot quicker and smoother. I have another ultrasound next Tuesday to make sure he is still a big boy and if he is all will be a go for the next Tuesday....

So....here's to 14 days and counting.

Monday Madness

Today was madness for several different reasons:

1. Last night Kolton refused to sleep. He screamed instead of snored. He cried instead of dreamt. He kicked instead of cuddled. It was horrific.

........do I mention here the severely painful contractions I was having.......

2. Obviously because of the above sentences I did not get ANY sleep.

3. Motherly instinct, "SOMETHING IS WRONG."

4. It must be that dastardly Lightening McQueen Bed.....

5. No, it's more then that.

6. Go to urgent care at 7am. Wait for an hour for a Dr. to say, "Ummm...I'm an orthopedic specialist. I wouldn't feel comfortable treating him. You need to take him to his pedi."

..........Thanks for the hour wait with a sick kid.

7. Get an appt. w/ pedi for 11am........more waiting w/ the sick kiddo.

8. Hmmmm....my throat is really sore. Damn.

9. Pedi diagnoses what I suspected all along. Yes....an ear infection. 5 minutes and $30 later.

10. Proceed to an afternoon and evening filled with sick kid behavior, my sore throat, contractions, and a total lack of sleep..............

Thank God this day is almost over.

Monday Madness.

Tonight's Milestone....

Kolton is asleep (for now) for the 1st time in his big boy Lightening McQueen bed. Lots of mixed emotions on this one. It is so weird to walk by his old room and see an empty crib waiting for Karson. I know I am going to sleep even lighter (if possible) just waiting for Kolton to come walking into our room. He is growing up too fast. I hate it......and love it. He is becoming .....swallow....a big boy. Ok...now the tears.................................

Christmas then....Christmas NOW!

Christmas 2008

In this picture Kolton was 10 months old. He looks so cute, but little does the onlooker know he was really taking a giant poop on poor Santa's lap. We had to rush to the bathroom to clean him up and then pick up our pictures.

Christmas 2009

Ok...so no poop, thank GOD. However, my little stinker decided he really wasn't up for any social activities today. This was the only picture that was close to a smile. Santa was so nice and asked him what he wanted. Kolton just said, "Ya". Then he asked if Kolton was a good boy. Kolton said, "Ya". Then he gave Kolton a book and....you guessed it....Kolton said, "Ya". Not "Thank you.", but "Ya".

There are 3 stages of man.....Those who believe in Santa, those who do not believe in Santa, and those who look like Santa. :)

On a side note.....

I am 35 weeks pregnant today. Saw the Dr. yesterday. I am doing ok. Really tired and crampy. Find it is getting difficult to do the most mundane tasks. He checked me and I am not dilated, -2 station, and 40% effaced. If you don't know what that means then I'll give you a brief synopsis....I have a ways to go before Karson can come out, but things are happening.

I am now on weekly visits and still on go for an induction on the 30th. That is exactly 3 weeks from today! HOLY SCHMOLY!

So blessed, so lucky....

I think the quotes below sum up how I am feeling lately. I am so blessed to have such wonderful family and friends in my life. I know as I am only 24 days away from meeting my new son that I am super emotional lately. But at the same time I think events like the birth of a child bring out the best in people, and I am so lucky I am getting to experience that for the second time in my life. I wish I was better at expressing how much these people mean to me. But sometimes, words just aren't enough.....

So for lack of better words I want to say THANK YOU. Thank you to all of you (YOU KNOW WHO YOUR ARE) who make my world so much better everyday. Some of you I've known since childhood, and some for the last year. But time doesn't matter, you still mean the world to me. And THANK YOU to my moms and dads, siblings, aunts and uncles, cousins, and extended family. You, too, mean the world to me.

"Sometimes in life, you find a special friend. Someone who changes your life just by being a part of it. Someone who makes you laugh until you can't stop. Someone who makes you believe that there really is good in the world. Someone who convinces you that there really is an unlocked door just waiting for you to open it. This is forever friendship. When you're down and the world seems dark and empty, your forever friend lifts you up in spirit and makes that dark and empty world suddenly seem bright and full. Your forever friend gets you through the hard times, the sad times and the confused times. If you turn and walk away, your forever friend follows. If you lose your way, your forever friend guides you and cheers you on. Your forever friend holds your hand and tells you that everything is going to be okay. And if you find such a friend, you feel happy and complete because you need not worry. You have a forever friend, and forever has no end."
---Unknown

"The best part of life is when your family becomes your friends, and your friends become your family."
---Danica Whitfield